Living Consciously

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Since the new year is right around the corner I thought that I’d think about how I lived in 2016 as far as achieving my goals. For the majority of the year I worked in a mentally stunting place but my new job allows me to constantly be around books, aka one of my loves. While it’s a step in the right direction, it’s not exactly what I want.

I was reading a post from Missing Wanderer about living consciously and how she answered a tiny questionnaire to see if she was. I thought I’d share my own answers to see how far I’ve come.

1. Are you in a job that you fell into rather than the job you want?
Fell into… it was pretty must a desperate application to get out of my awful job. Love it though.

2. Are you doing things that are given to you rather than what you love to do?
Given to me. I haven’t done photography in so long…

3. Are you spending your time doing busy work rather than what you want to do with your days?
Busy work I guess. I’m just working to pay the bills honestly.

4. Do you wish you could spend more time with loved ones?
I really make an effort to see B and Ri as often as possible. I see them both at least once a week.

5. Do you find yourself overweight because you’ve been eating the food you’ve been eating for years and stuck in a rut of not exercising?
Not overweight per se, but I do wish that I went to the gym more often and ate better.

6. Do you find yourself living from paycheck to paycheck or in debt, not knowing where your money goes?
I’m not living paycheck to paycheck because I’m so damn frugal and I’ve been managing my student loans pretty well but I still wish I made more.

7. Do you find yourself wasting your time doing things that aren’t important rather than focusing on completing the things that are very important?
Y E S. I’m always doing something so when I finally have free time I just to relax, not good for productivity.

8. Do you go through your days not thinking about what you want out of life and how to get it?
I think about my goals almost every day. I know how I can start getting to them but I need to get a fire under my ass to actually get it going.

As you can see, I’m not living how I want to. For the new year I WILL be finding my motivation again. I’ll be enrolling in school in the fall so I need to start preparing and create a foundation so I won’t go to class a complete noob. For tips on how to live more consciously, here they are.

Have you been living consciously? Let me know if you answer the questionnaire!

December goals 2016

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December is upon us! There is nothing but Santa and X-Mas trees everywhere so it’s time to get into the holiday spirit. I’ll start by reflecting on my goals from last month and making some new ones.

November
Get this job and start really saving (loooove my new job. saving is meh right now cause of my birthday and holidays but I’ll do better soon!)
Kickstart my self teaching routine for graphic design (nope… I need to buy some books)
Learn to make a dish for thanksgiving  (I made stuffing! I mean it only takes 3 minutes to make but it’s a start)
Take better care of myself (Yep! last month had a lot of pamper days)

December
Save money for x-mas presents!
Buy some graphic design books
Plan ahead for friends birthdays next year

I’ll keep it simple for this month since the holidays will most likely suck up all of my attention…

Truly Spoiled

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Happy Friday! Sorry about the crickets here, my birthday week has been so amazing that I haven’t had the time to sit down and post until now. And is it already December!? 2016 has been hell in a basket but let’s hope that next year will be better. But don’t we always say that?

I feel like all of my festivities began Tuesday instead of Wednesday. That morning my grandma surprised me with a beautiful gold chain with two pendants. One is a small Buddha and the other is this mesmerizing trinket that has a small image of a monk inside. The pendants ended up being too small to fit on the chain so Mama Thai bought me one to fit. My grandma also gave me her beautiful opal ring, it’s her birthstone but it’s so special to me. In my family/culture, jewelry is extremely important so if it’s not real, it’s practically trash lol. It’s so nice to receive actual family heirlooms.

The lovely Ri got me this stunning off the shoulder top that I love but I’m truly upset that I can’t wear it until next year… B got me UGGs and let me say that I always hated them because they’re so common now but he got me ones that are a cross between their original boots and combat boots which is exactly my style. My friends know me so well. My “I love me” present was a new winter coat from Zumiez, it’s called a snow jacket so it better live up to its name!

We went to the African American History museum on Wednesday and it was so incredible. We were there for over 2 hours yet only got through one floor. It’ll take about 3 visits to get through the entire thing I think. There’s just SO MUCH.

The fun isn’t over though, Ri and I got tickets to the live show of The Friend Zone for tomorrow! Then on Sunday I have a movie date with Papa Rey. This is probably the best birthday I’ve ever had and it’s all because of my friends and family.

Which was your favorite birthday?

Family. Friends. Food.


Happy post thanksgiving! I’m sure we all have gained at least 5 pounds in the past few days but don’t expect it to stop there because Christmas dinner is on the horizon. 

For me, I always think of where I’m spending thanksgiving because it’s either with a friend, sig. other or family. This year I spent it with B and his family and lawd hammercy I wasn’t disappointed. B’s mom is an angel because everything was amazing. She made jerked turkey, prime rib, mashed potatoes, mac and cheese, dirty rice… just everything. I brought the stuffing and made deviled eggs, I personally hated the eggs cause they didn’t taste like my mom’s but everyone else did so whatever.

The itis hit me so hard that by 6 pm I felt like a toddler trying to stay awake. I was so full that all I could do was lay on the couch. B’s family is hilarious so we all laughed while watching football and talking about whatever came to mind.

Some of us even went Black Friday shopping that night since some stores start their sales early. I kept debating on if I wanted to go and I ended up going with Ri and her mom later on Friday. The mall was hella crowded but I’m sure the morning was worse. I just got the necessities. 

It was an amazing week and I can’t wait to go to the African American History Museum on Wednesday for my birthday!! Ready for an overload of black excellence.

How was your thanksgiving?

Ready to get fat

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My favorite holiday of the year is tomorrow.

I’m all about family during the holiday season. Being together and getting fat with no remorse. I’ll be spending it with B’s family this year and I can’t wait because his mom can throw down. I wanted to make something but since I’m a noob at cooking I’ll just be making stuffing. Mama Thai will be helping me tomorrow morning so it’ll be fresh for dinner.

I would’ve made it tonight but I knew that Thanksgiving traffic would be hell tonight so I’ll just be patient. Some people like to get dressed up but I shall be in a pair of leggings and a slouchy sweater. Who wants to eat in clothes you don’t want to get dirty? And the sweater will hide my food baby. Let the feast begin!

Where are you going this Thanksgiving?

Just breathe


This weekend went from being good to irritating.

I just can’t understand how a person can be so stuck in their ways that it seems like they’ll never do better. I can’t be like that, I refuse to. 

I’m not sure exactly what kind of person I’ll be as I get older, but I know what I WONT be like. 

I need to move out.

My back hurts

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Have you ever just felt so excited to be done with something? Whether it’s the last day of school, finishing a paper or leaving a job? Where you just want to throw your papers all over the room or run out? That’s me right now.

My last day of work is tomorrow and let me say that it’s taking a lot of willpower to not shout obscenities, knock things over and run out. I had to take someone’s shift to make up hours so I pulled a double on Monday. It was a pretty decent day but it didn’t stop customers from getting on my last nerve and a therapist from complaining as soon as he walked in. Every time I wanted to throw something I just said this one thing… I’M LEAVING!! I can’t wait to turn in my keys and parking pass to never return. There are only 3 people there I’ll miss and they all have my number. GOOD RIDDANCE.

Yesterday I attended my first day of training at my new job. After the required paperwork and blah we got a tour (it’s three floors of glorious books) and started cashier training. It was a total of 6 hours there but for the last 3 or so we were at the register. The manager gave us a booklet of scenarios we had to learn and tbh it wasn’t too bad. The only problem was that standing in the same place for that long made my back hurt. I need to buy those nurse shoes or something before I spasm.

We met a lot of the other managers/associates and all of them were pretty nice. They would introduce themselves and offer help whenever we had a question. A few of them recognized me from my interview and were like “hey! you got the job! congrats!”. It was also refreshing to see people actually reading on their breaks. I mean it is a bookstore right? But one of the best parts is that they get advanced copies of books for us to take and read so when the book actually comes out we can talk about it. Free books? Fuck yes.

I’m actually excited to work there, the only cons are parking (there is none that you don’t have to pay for) and if you drive during rush hour people are INSANE. I almost crashed several times last night because people don’t know how to use their blinker. It will be a bus or train for me.

Are you starting anything new soon?